| Some went to panama to party, some went on mission trips, some went on family vacations, some stayed home...
My adventure was that third one mentioned. The all-american family vacation to the mountains...
I must say, gatlinberg was pretty...very. I finally got some chill time. Life had been ultimate crazy up until 5:15 monday night(when i got off work) anyways...everything was cool. Horseback riding, cheesy attractions, the beautiful scenery,new smiling people, taffy, fudge...and on and on. However, while I was alone, which happened many times on account that I was the 5th wheel to my parents, my brother and his friends, I had plenty of time to think..I found myself wishing I was on our church mission trip with everyone else. Wondering why the heck didn't I sign up. I came to the conclusion that I have been standing still for sooo long. ya im not doing anything bad, no im not making unhealthy decisions, but i'm also not doing anything else..sure i want to help...but i didnt do anything about it. so basically being alone in the mountains made me realize i should be stepping out some. there's so much more i'd like to accomplish, but sitting back and watching the world go by won't change anything.
that includes me being unhappy. yea stuff makes me sooo upset to a point where i cry a lot of my nights, but that doesnt mean i can't fix it...it doesnt mean that because i have people trying to ruin me and jump down my throats, that i cant be happy...my happiness is up to me.not the backstabbing best friend, the nagging, guilt trip giving EX-boyfriend, or the stupid expectations drawn by teachers or managers/bosses.
I'm my own person. and im pretty sure i make my own decisions regarding my feelings.
go ahead, take a stab.
pasta is ready : ) talk to you later |
